On Doing And Being

I have had this complex lately.  A feeling of not being enough, of not doing enough.  I’m telling you it is toxic and not how god wants us to live. 

On a recent trip to Haiti I had these same feelings.  I was there, meeting with people, connecting with potential new partners.  During the same week a group was there hosting medical and soul care clinics, women’s, men’s and pastor’s seminars and doing a lot of stuff.  The first few days I felt useless, unnecessary and to be honest, a little like a fraud.  I felt this extreme sense that their work was more valuable, more impactful, more necessary in some way.  To be honest, it felt yucky and depressing and part of me just wanted to turn around and go home. 

But then Monday came and I was reunited with old Haitian friends.  Our connections give me purpose.  Our mutual love and respect for each other is enough.  I remembered that I can be who I am and make a difference.  One of the main reasons I continue to travel to Haiti is to remind people that they matter.  To make sure all are seen and heard and their voice is valuable to the change they want to see in their country.  I would love to see more being on this little island.  It’s the being that leads to the doing by Haitians.  Empowerment, community, connection.