I have had this complex lately. A feeling of not being enough, of not doing
enough. I’m telling you it is toxic and
not how god wants us to live.
On a recent trip to Haiti I had these same feelings. I was there, meeting with people, connecting
with potential new partners. During the
same week a group was there hosting medical and soul care clinics, women’s, men’s
and pastor’s seminars and doing a lot of stuff.
The first few days I felt useless, unnecessary and to be honest, a
little like a fraud. I felt this extreme
sense that their work was more valuable, more impactful, more necessary in some
way. To be honest, it felt yucky and
depressing and part of me just wanted to turn around and go home.
But then Monday came and I was reunited with old Haitian
friends. Our connections give me
purpose. Our mutual love and respect for
each other is enough. I remembered that
I can be who I am and make a difference.
One of the main reasons I continue to travel to Haiti is to remind
people that they matter. To make sure
all are seen and heard and their voice is valuable to the change they want to
see in their country. I would love to
see more being on this little island. It’s
the being that leads to the doing by Haitians.
Empowerment, community, connection.
